I'm Making it!

Today I feel pretty good..in control..something that scares me is not feeling in control of my life. When I feel like that..that is when I eat..I mean seriously eat. It is amazing how much you can eat even after having had gastric bypass surgery..at the 4 yr mark though. You can't eat much of anything that first year out etc..so don't even try! You don't want to wreck what you and so many others have put into this.

This is the first time I've had to deal with head hunger since my surgery and it is scary!!! It doesn't help though that I am in the midst of serious PMS meltdown..I was talking about chocolate yesterday I believe..that is no joke. It's like there is a chemical released in my brain that I have very little control over once that urge for chocolate kicks in..I have a little chocolate.

Once I have it..I am talking 1 ounce. 1 small sqaure..letting it melt slowly in my mouth..than I'm okay. I can get through the rest of the day and be in control. I am after all a true food addict. That is my "fix" for the day. For me it has become one meal at a time. I guess I'd rather be a food addict than an alcoholic or a drug addict. Addictions though can go off in some many different directions.

I do not appreciate people who speak of such addictions and just offer opinions. I will gladly listen to your thoughts and opinions only if you've been there or are where I am at. I've had too many people lately only to eager to spout their thoughts and opinions and not even know diddly shit about me. Sorry..not going to let that happen any more!